I just want to tell you that the emails I received this week were all so perfect. For those that have written to me up until this point in my mission, I always feel uplifted and strengthened by your words. But this week especially I feel so much love and support, and I just want you to know that I am really grateful, and that your words have definitely lifted me up. THANK YOU! :)
I just have two things that I wanted to share. This week, just like every other week, I have felt my inadequacy (sorry if that is spelled wrong, i don´t really speak English correctly these days) as a missionary. Okay that´s not acutally the right word...just that my role in this whole big plan that God has is really, really small. As a mission, we all had to memorize the "comission as a missionary". This week, I memorized it, and I wanted to share it with you-
I am called of God.
My authority is above that of kings of the earth.
By revelation I have been selected as a personal representative of the Lord Jesus Christ.
He is my master and He has chosen me to represent Him--to stand in His place, to say and do what He Himself would say and do if He personally were ministering to the very people to whom He has sent me.
My voice is His voice, and my acts are His acts; my doctrine is His doctrine.
My Commission is to do what He wants done; To say what He wants said; to be a living modern witness in word and in deed of the divinity of his great and marvelous Latter-day work.
How great is my calling!
I love this. Actually, to be completely honest, I think it sounds way cooler in Spanish. But that
literally is what I´m called to do right now. To do what Jesus would do, to say what he would say. It´s a little intimidating sometimes, but I´m learning how to trust less in myself and more in Him.
I understand why the people we teach don´t understand that very well - trusting in God, a person that we´ve never seen and more than likely never heard. It´s hard for us too, as missionaries. We have a lot that we need to do, and we are supposed to trust in this person that we have never seen. It´s not an easy thing to do. It´s an interesting thing that the gospel asks us to do. When we pray, we are required to have faith that our prayer will be answered. We have commandments that we are supposed to follow, that sometimes we don´t understand very well. Being a member of the church, or even just believing in God and that He has a plan for us, isn´t always an easy thing to do. But little by little, I´m starting to understand my own faith. My own purpose not just as a missionary, but as a human living in this world. It´s a really beautiful thing, and it really all starts with our willingness to change, repent, and follow Jesus Christ. When we have faith, when we trust in Him, we can do those things
that seem impossible, like change from who we are now into a person that God knows we can be. It´s all about faith.
Last night, Hermano and Hermana Balvin came with us all the way out to the farthest part of our area. I think I´ve told you about them before, they´re honestly the best. They are just a couple of
sweet, returned missionaries that still love to preach the gospel, so they come with us to teach all the time. We taught some great lessons, but when we got back Hno Balvin said to me (in his sweet, broken English), "WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH, Hermana Scott and we want you to always remember that." I don´t really know how to explain what exactly I felt in that moment, but it just made me realize how grateful I am to be here, doing what I´m doing. I´m grateful to be able to share this love that I feel with the people I teach. I´ll never forget the love I felt for the missionaries, all of the people who helped me in my own journey to get me where I am today. I just feel really honored to be able to give my best effort and do all that I can to help even just one other person feel that same love, have that same life changing experience, being able to really come to know their savior Jesus Christ.
I am really happy. I hope you are all doing well. Know that I love you and I always pray for you! Have a great week!!!!!
ALL of my love,
Hermana Michelle Scott
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