HELLO FAMILY!! How are you all?? I hope that this week has been a good one, and that you passed the new year happily :)
This week has been kind of dificult out here. Well, acutally, it was one of the best weeks I´ve had. Which doesn´t really go together, but somehow that´s how it works.
This week, my companions and I really worked hard. The holidays had us in kind of a slump, and we hadn´t really had a lot going on because either people left to go party on the beach (I don´t blame them) or didn´t want to talk to a couple of gringas because they were hanging out with their families (again, I don´t blame them). We were kind of bummed becuase we just kind of felt like we hadn´t been able to do a whole lot. So we set some goals, and decided to just "go out and do the missionary work." BUT, there´s a little bit of an overlapping story...
So my first companion, Hermana Deoporto, and I had our problems. We loved each other, we worked hard together, we saw miracles together, and we had a great time together, but it was not an easy time for either of us. First of all, I didn´t speak any Spanish at the time but was still convinced that I knew everything and that everything should be done in my way, so that didn´t help very much. We defintely had our rough patches. Long nights, trying to work things out. Lots of goal setting, trying to overcome the challenges and trying to learn how to love each other and just focus on the things that really matter (AKA God and His children). I could see that she was struggling, but I don´t think I knew how to help her. We worked together a lot, and as my Spanish improved we were able to talk about a lot of things, but I think that there were a lot of things that got left unnoticed.
My current situation is that I am the companion of the "sister leaders." I don´t remember if I already explained this, but if not,every mission is broken up into "zones." For each zone, there are about 20+ ish missionaries, and there are 2 elders that are called Zone leaders. Recently, what the church has decided is that 20 year old men can´t always help 20 year old women with their problems (interestingly enough), so recently they have assigned sister leaders to be sort of like zone leaders for all the sister missionaries. In our mission, there are two companionships that are sister leaders, and I am just the companion of two of the sisters. I hope you're following me. So I am not a sister leader, but I am their companion, and so I obviously do everything with them and help them when I can with their responsibilities.
So why this is all important - as the companion of the sister leaders, I always know when people are stuggling, because they always know and are always working to figure it all out. But sadly, Hermana Deoporto has really started having problems, and just is sort of giving up little by little. She had told our mission president that she wanted to go home, and she was really going to do it, but he talked it through with her and she changed her mind. But recently things have gotten really bad....this week, we did a Little division. Since my companions and I are a group of 3, my companion Hermana Phillips went to their area to work with them. To make a long story short, Hna Deoporto just kind of had a break down last night. She started screaming (this is something that I have experienced before, and really, it is SCREAMING) at her companion, and my companion was there to see and hear all of it. She started packing her suitcases and said she was calling president to go home. We got a call at midnight telling us that she had settled down, but the moral of the story is that she is having a really hard time and no one really knows how to help.
I kind of blamed myself for a minute when all of this started happening. Like maybe I could have done something or said something to help. But I realized that I shouldn´t think that way. something that Hna Killian (my other comp) said the other day has just been replaying in my head... her friend told her this, but I feel this words in my heart whenever I read them -
"I´m on my mission to become someone new. If you´re thinking about where you've been and what you´ve done, you´re limiting your vision of what you can become."
Hermana Deoporto is a dear friend of mine. We have overcome our hard times and become friends. But I know that these words are true for me, and even though I know I have so much more to learn and so much more to do, I can feel myself changing. And the amazing thing is that Hermana Deoporto too has changed so much for the better. She just needs to see that, and believe that.
Thats the point of all of this. That our own thoughts, and our own actions are the things that keep us from having a bigger vision. A bigger vision of what we can become.
I´m out of time. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! Know that I am thinking of you and I am always praying for you!!
Have a great week!
Mucho amor,
Hermana Scott
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